Catch a dream and put it in your pocket

Letter Challenge Day#5: Your Dreams ( hope )

Dear Dreams, 

Have I forgotten you; Or have you forgotten me?

Have I displaced your allowances, setting hope on a shelf I can't even reach?

I'm tired of chasing you; my feet worn from the repetitive tred I've carved in my frenzied attempt to catch you before I allow myself to hit the ground.

Let me reveal a secret to you. 

I do not know you. 

You stay just out of reach. My fingers only grazing your beauty long enough to feel the magic I could swim, deep and thick within, if you were to come closer... if you were to reach out to me. 

But Dreams; I've lost my hope.

I left hope behind on a cloudy day last May, where everything I dreamed, everything I loved, eluded me, nay; confined me from all I deserved, from the room I sat waiting, praying, begging, for them to open a door, a window, to call my name, write a letter, sing a song, or just answer a simple call. 

You see, I chose him and asked him to choose me. He didn't.

And with that day- I let go of dreaming. I let go of hope. 

On this Thursday Evening, I can't decide if dreaming was everything that made my life complete and wonderful.. or if not dreaming makes things simple in a way I'd rather accept.

But heres to you, for the beauty and the pain, you and your companion of hope have graced my life with. 

My heart holds a special place for you both, but my hands can't take the weight right now. 

Until next time I suppose.. 

Happy Dreamer catching. 

♥Elska