Lonely as lonely stays

"They read you Cinderella
You hoped it would come true
That one day your Prince Charming
Would come rescue you"

Some days, i feel so lonely that I swear i lose more than just hope. 

In finding myself, i swear i take one step forward and three back. 

In making plans for my future , i'll swear to you i'm no longer running. 

But i know i still am. 

From what? I don't know. 

Towards something i can't find i suppose. 

 

The closer i get to someone the further they run. The more I reveal the more they hide. 

"The grass is always greener on the other side"  they say. And it's true. though why can't i ever be the one on the other side?

I've tried so hard lately. I've let all my walls down, i've let my heart be seen. I've jumped feet first and made sure to make an impact. 

turns out that doesnt work either. 

I'm worse off now than i was before. 

I'm breaking my own heart.