To the Mergy I'm attached to

Sometimes the moments that take our breath away are the simple days and the simple things... 

Like spending too much  money on a tiny trip, falling asleep on a cold clouded day just to wake up to what feels like a first degree burn. Sleeping in your car just to say you did. drinking a dozen monsters so you don't kill your favorite passenger. Liking the same guy and sharing a hate for the other. Wishing life was a show tune and road trips where you loose your voice from singing so horribly off tune and so terribly loud. 

My best friend knows me. 

She sticks by me through thick and thin, even when i find her being my personal bully. 

Meagan is me. Meagan is her. And that is why i love her. 

She see's me because she is like me. Yet she is so different she is able to see that faults I need to change or the attitudes i need to adjust. 

I'm sorry for nit-picking the little things lately. 

I'm sorry I've been intolerably depressed and at times have left you to fend with your own pain. 

I find its harder to deal with you and your suffering when I can't deal with my own. 

Though when I shut up and listen, and you shut up and listen.. i think we can both agree that we realize we are in the same boat.. paddling just as hard to get somewhere.. anywhere.. 

Wouldn't it be easier to stay afloat and make it to a destination if we were to share the rowing?

I know I teeter between to do and where to go. because we ARE on a different plain of life even if neither you or I want to admit it. 

Although, I can't stay afloat without you. We've been through too much and seen too much together to just split so abruptly. 

So I follow you, you follow me.. and we stay intact, if even a little. 

If only you knew how much I love you Meagan. 

You would never doubt it. 

xo

-Elska