A me I can't hide......

Inside the head and heart of me... this is what I look like.......

.........I want a wrist tattoo. And a small heart somewhere on my rib cage. 

I want to kiss a stranger on my own terms and not feel the sting of rejection from someone else for a change.

I want to run naked and carefree down every road in town and have no qualms with the peeping toms. 

I want to scream inaudible words into the loudest microphone and go hoarse for days from the damage it caused to my vocal chords. 

I want to sing without feeling embarrassed. 

I want to dance without feeling judged. 

I want to spin and feel beautiful. 

I want to believe in beauty. 

I want to hear of love rather than hear of it's end. 

I want to feel hope for all my hopelessness. 

I want to have a story to tell and quit disappointing everyone.

I want to feel like im doing something good with my life. 

I want to quit thinking about 'my life' and live someone elses for a change. 

I want to hear a song and not relate it to my life.

I want to be good at something and feel talented.

I want to never tell anyone that I love them again, and take away every 'chance' ungiven.

I want to delete facebook, email, all social networking and remove any trace of me on the world wide web. 

I want to run away tonight and forget about what my family, my boss, or myself, would think. 

I want to quit thinking about where i would go.. what i would do. 

I want to belong to someone, to live for someone, to love someone. 

I want to sit in the bathtub for the rest of my living days. 

I want to read Jane Austin until I die and never have another book discussion for as long as i live. 

I want to open my own bookshop.. call it "Story Book Cottage" and make it the coziest little place you will ever reside. 

I want to sink into a leather couch so deep that no one will ever find me. 

I want to quit my job.

I want to lay in bed. 

I want to sleep in and go to bed early. 

I want to eat yogurt, drink milk, have an orange and indulge in chocolate without feeling like death.

I want to allow myself to care for someone. 

I want to open up to someone

I want to take a tub, leave my hair down, and forget about makeup and clothing for however long I desire not to care. 

I want to be me in front of everyone.. without anyone.