Living through 2012

I have lived Strong this year. 

Looking back i have loved fearlessly, i have faced fear and conquered obstacles. 

I moved mountains when i decided to let Today be Today and Yesterday be Yesterday. 

I found reasons to love who i am, and changed those things i couldn't love. 

I made conscious decisions to turn my back on hate, and not associate with what and whom brought me nothing but grief. 

I said No when i wanted to say Yes. And i said Yes, when i would have normally said No. 

I laughed loud and sincere. I smiled with my eyes more than usual. 

I felt sexy for the first time. 

I found what it was to be loved in return. I also found when love was not meant for me, and had the courage to say Goodbye. 

I felt passion. I felt lust. I craved attention. And i sought for loneliness. 

I dove into emotion with both hands. 

I Dug myself a grave, and than dug myself back out. /

I cried while my heart tore inside me. 

I experiences red hot anger, and dark numbness. 

I felt free, and flew higher than ever before. I did things i told myself i never would. 

I loved things i once had hate for. 

I made drastic mistakes and learned to rise above them. 

I followed my heart and let my head sit aside. 

I burned. I froze. I was silent and still. I was loud and furious. 

"If you going to something, do it on purpose."

2012, I lived- on purpose. I broke boundaries and re-crafted myself, on purpose. 

I love with all entirety what this year brought me through. 

I lived out loud. 

-Elska