In doing so i have been brought back through my past leaving so many moments and heartaches to be dug out from there low grave, giving me a chance to truly heal the wounds i thought i had.
It talks about how as a young girl we seek to be beautiful to someone, to our parents, our friends, boys.. etc. We want assurance of our beauty from earthly imperfections and are left scared if we are told otherwise.
This craving to feel lovely is extended into adulthood where our relationships are chastised within our own souls if we don't feel that same love and assurance of the beauty we hold within us as Women. Their not talking outward beauty but our inner pretty selves that long to be a princess in a fairytale, a heroine in a roaring bedtime story, the 'Ezer' to the men we love. We long for a knight in shining armor, a man in tattered rags, a farm boy with no fortune.. anything, anyone, we just long to be saved, to be sought for, to be fought for, to be everything to someone, to be told through actions and words that we are.The excerpt on the back of the book states this:
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"Every woman was once a little girl. And every little girl holds in her heart her most precious dreams. She longs to be swept up into a romance, to play an irreplaceable role in a great adventure, to be the beauty of the story. Those desires are far more than childs play. They are the secret to the feminine heart.
And yet how many women do you know who ever find that life- As the years pass by, the heart of a woman gets pushed aside, wounded, buried, she finds no romance except in novels, no adventure except on television, and she doubts very much that she will ever be the beauty in any tale.
But her heart is still there. Sometimes when she watches a movie, sometimes in the wee hours of the night, her heart begins to speak again. A thirst rises within her to find the life she was meant to life- the life she dreamed of as a little girl. "
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It goes on to remind us that all our longings and desires are telling us of the life we were created to Live. That God is the one to rescue us of our pained heart and release us to live as a fully alive woman. a woman who is truly captivating.
This book is so powerful. Going along the same lines as what i previously wrote about two blogs ago- the greatest meaning i found in this book what that no one can decide if i am or if i am not captivating other than God and myself. I bring out who i am- i am the only person who can decide to be what i wish to be.
I'm a good person.. i do know that. I'm beautiful in all the little ways that make me who i am. My Past, Present and Future make the mysteries of my life lovely. I've known who i am for some time now, and i continue along my way knowing what kind of life i am delving into righteously , knowingly and excitingly!
So, not that easy.. but in steps.. I will no longer need your acceptance- thank you, but no thank you. Because 'i am' purely captivating to God.
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