I am going to be 25 on November 5th.
I want to be some place within myself when that time comes.
I want to have made goals and begin a start on each one, with a sort of unbreakable diligence.
I know where i want to be and I have an idea of what i want to do.
So im going to do it.
I am going to aim towards all that i desire instead of keeping on the train of procrastination that i always get trapped on.
I'm finally going to work on me and forget about choosing things based on what i believe others think for me.
Finally i am going to "Be Shaina". A kind of thing i've been working on for years and never reached. well this year... i will succeed.
Its time to sing in the mornings and feel beautiful. Its time to work in a coffee shop simply because i want to, and read a ridiculous number of books. Its time to start a collection, write down my worries, face my fears, educate myself through a university, Go running on the waterfront, find and grow my talents, and all in all just get serious about my life and where it should go.. or rather, where i would like it to go.
Im done with playing around. Im done with 'moving' to run away. Im done chasing wonders. I want a place of my own where my clothes can hang in their closet and i can fold my own laundry on my own couch as i watch movies i can have lined on a shelf against my own wall.
I want stability and a steady income that i'll create a budget off of and use a real bank with a real visa card.
I want to feel 25. Young and free, yet responsible and adult.
I am ready for this.
Now i need to get myself out of the caribbean.. home for money and my car and than its off to Portland Oregon where the life i want can begin.
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