My light......

Last night i was thoroughly engaged in Introspection. What i discovered was my family. At times i feel as though i have failed at everything i have set out to accomplish. Feelings of a lacking life have plagued my thoughts and i cannot seem to escape. Though, My family- they are the one thing in my life i am utterly proud of. Coming through for me without feelings of obligation, you are the light i grasp. I love you.
When i was younger i used to cry when i thought of how long i got to keep them all. Eternity didn't seem long enough and i missed them already. How silly it sounds.
We've suffered hand in hand for as long as i can remember. Trials only letting up for a breath not long enough to catch. Your strength is beyond you, i know our weaknesses and this is not it. Keep lifting family and let God carry us...I cannot be with out you in Eternity.
I am reminded of 'On our own' a movie we watched as younger kids. We made a pact to always save each other. This is the time....not the end.